hmm funny you should say that Forward. He did a "no show" for d13 softball game... texted her and said he had to work. yeah BULL. But whatever, made for a better night.. I mean in 7 days I think I saw him like 5 or 6 times. ugh.. enough already. He is gearing up for another trip to Vegas. Ah yea..just the place to go and pretend... just what he is best at... fairwell sucker!! ugh!!
Trusting - I am with you on the positive thoughts. Since the beginning my sister has been reinforcing that to me over and over... to "Do the opposite" of whatever my mind is telling me (in regards to negative thoughts.
Would love to read the book -- actually may just go check it out at Barnes and Noble for myself right now just hope I can stay awake to read. My schedule makes me so very tired... I get up 3 days a week at 4:45am to run, 2 days at 5:30, weekends are no better -- so I am pretty much exhausted. I do however, have the wonderful skill of napping!! love naps! And with my every other weekends.. well often that is what I do.
Going to go google that book now... .love anything about healing!! heal heal heal. But ya know what I am realizing?? sometimes you have a tiny bit of scar tissue and it itches... lol
heading to google now...
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
was posting on a friends thread.. time to vent hear.
my x.
what a tool. what a jerk.
last night or shoudl i say yesterday, d13 had a bad day. just a BAD middle school day - and she was sad.
After we talked through all the "stuff".. her little heart peaked out. "I just have been really missing dad, mom." I listened.. and said "you have to reach out to him.. if you miss him call him, if you want to see him let him know." she looked at me with tears in her eyes and said "that wont change the truth mom... I won't ever have my dad kiss me before bed again, or come home to our family again... i wont see him after work, or before school.... and nothing is going to change that.. "
Divorce..
the world says "the kids adjust." or how about "my x is one of my best friends..."
But family is destroyed.
Way to go walk aways.. you did it. You chose your SELF ... you proved yet again (at least in my casE) that you really are the most self-centered person i know... always thought so.. now i know it!
venting....
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
I am so sad for your daughter, for all the kids who suffer due to selfishness. I am sorry Cagz. She needs you.....She will make it through this because of you.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
Been so tired lately. Pretty sure it is pms. Every other month is really really bad.. last night fell asleep on the couch at 6:45 - woke up at 9:30 to clean up. Then D13 said.. "ok mommy, lets go put you to bed." love her tender heart!!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
Im so sorry for your daughter cagz....they go through alot when a parent leaves.... my daughter is the same age as yours and its not something they can adjust too easily at all!!
Praying for you.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
my grandma passed away last weekend.... i did share it with x. he text back words.. he is so good with words, yet they were so empty. BUT he did call later (i think it was after his date! ha!) but was nice -- but he is like that.. ahh the passive aggressive so much easier to live with when you DONT live with them.
spent time with my family. GOD blessed me and got me home. it was wonderful -but strange. For 20 years my sister was single, stayed at my house for family things and slept on the couch, my parents in the guest room - and me and my x in our bed. THIS was a swtich... my sister with HER husband in HER bed, my parents in the guest room - and ME on the couch. It was strange... but I WONT allow Satan an in road to me on that one.. but man oh man does he try!!
life moves on.. even after death. even after divorce...
we heal -- though it does NOT look like we hoped or thought.
I am healing... just not they way I expected
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
Hey Cagz...so sorry to hear about your Grandma's passing. You are in my prayers.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
just hope I can stay awake to read. My schedule makes me so very tired... I get up 3 days a week at 4:45am to run, 2 days at 5:30, weekends are no better -- so I am pretty much exhausted. I do however, have the wonderful skill of napping!! 
love naps! And with my every other weekends.. well often that is what I do.