Thanks Doc for Birthday Song... and enjoyed my breakfast!! LOL
Thanks for all the birthday wishes...too bad im not 26... getting closer to 40.... 38 years old... some days I feel older.
Birthday was uneventful... Went to breakfast with the boys and H. He worked on the new Playset for the boys, there was no gettting around that! We went to Dinner that night. Was really nice.
Things have been so busy, between dr.s and appts and doing bids, im a little overwhelmed. H and I have been up and down as usual.
Some days I want to jump ship, others are good.
He is actually on his way out of state until probably late Wed.
You all know how I get when he is out of town. Im going to try and just keep myself busy.
The boys just got new baby chickens yesterday, and I have baby ducks coming in today..Oh Boy!
Im glad you keeping track NC on the alt. I have to check in on you.
Miss you Saffie! Hope everything is well..really enjoy the pics of the horses!
Thanks Kat!
Doc, What can I say, Your a piece of Cake!!
Blessings Everyone..
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
I need to come here more often to just vent my fustrations.. because it seems when I don't, I have knowone to let it out with and I end of getting crazed and even more upset.
This week as been very stressful. we have a big project we are trying to get, but as usual H seems the need to take out his fustrations on me. How do I deal with a man who refuses to think he is doing anything wrong, and that because he is the one who actually goes out and works that I should suck up all of his bullcrap that he hands out to me.
Not to mention that I am the one running the business here, taking care of the boys and our personal stuff on top of it. So sick of being unappreciated.
I guess im on a train that just will never port, he's never going to change, and Im stuck here, literally.
He's already predicting how much more equipment he wants to buy before we even get this job, even know we have tons of bills and things to our house that are in dire need of fixing. Really, you don't know the half of it. My ceiling has been without Sheetrock for about a year. We had a leak in one of the pipes and he just dosen't want to spend the money to fix it....but he can buy a new tool...UGG...
All I have been doing is throwing myself into my kids, and no its not healthy to continue to do that, but what else can I do. I honestly don't even want to be around him.
He is leaving Mother's day to go out of state to do a job. Won't probably be back until thurs. or friday.I am actually really looking forward to it, of course I have that nagging ache in the back of my head that wonders what he will be doing with the free time he will have, but this time after the last week or so, I am welcoming it.
The house will be quiet, I won't have him nagging me like crazy and I will be in a better place.
I don't feel like im in control of my life anymore, that he is leading me to where my future will be.
If I get some extra money, this week I plan on doing a couple things for myself. Even if its walking the mall.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Thanks for stopping by. I wish I had some great pearls of wisdom to offer you. I think people get in a habit of treating someone a certain way and the receiving person gets used to having it pushed on them. It is a terrible cycle. Someone needs to break it or this rut will break you.
Try to set aside a bit of money to get things fixed. It certainly isn't any fun to have things falling apart around you. I think it would lift your spirits too.
Also really try to make a certain block of time yours each week. Do what you want and that time is exclusively yours.
I hope you get a release from all of your stress soon.
hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I will echo what Kat has said. Another possibility is that you each maintain a separate account for one's personal discretion, and contributing to joint ventures together. If your H has new tools in his own personal budget, after all other necessary expenses, then he can do as he pleases. But if he hasn't yet contributed to a particular joint fund (one you have both determined together to be of greater precedence) then he has to contribute to that first. So you set up a "fix the sheetrock" or more general "home repairs" fund that you each contribute to -- and let that be the means by which things get done and avoid things getting neglected.
(I can tell you I've had a long time now to think about this now and I wish I had thought of and implemented such a plan when I was still M'ed. The ex would have had less to complain about my guy-thing need for new "toys" and we both would have come to grips with what our priorities as a couple really were. I would have been far more judicious in my own spending had I not seen how she tended to squander our resources herself.)
I concede that it wouldn't work in everyone's case, but it's worth a thought.
Thanks for the advice. The problem is with our business, we get paid whenever we get paid so 99% of the time we are playing catch up with everything else. I will work it out some way.
Happy Mothers day to all the DB Mom's out there!
We didn't do a whole lot. Took my mom to brunch and then came home.H had to get things ready for the truck to leave to go out of state. That was about it.
He left last night about 7pm. I had of course my usual breakdown right after he leaves... Mixed emotions.... wondering what he is doing and him not actually being here.
My friend called as soon as he left, so she caught me... it was good though, I talked to her and she cheered me up. She just thought I was upset because he was leaving though .
Got lots of work to do today, got to get some works orders out etc.
Have a good day everyone...
Oh and Doc thanks for the Video... Very cool Indeed!!
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
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