Going straight forward...antlers 6th thread.

[antlers]

The communication between she and I, on her part, spoken and unspoken, is so mean that it's hard to get my brain around it. But it's real. She's doing whatever she can, no matter how wrong it is, to facilitate the best outcome for her. She wants me out of her life, and out of our kids lives, and she will stoop to whatever low is required to help her accomplish that. This woman that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with has become a true adversary.
I'm a better man now than I was in the past...and I'll be a better man after this 'war that nobody wins' is over. She's figuring on 'winning'...on 'cashing in' big time. But I'm fighting to the bitter end for my kids and myself...so that WE can have the best outcome obtainable. It doesn't look good for me right now...but I'm gonna fight to the nth degree of my capabilities.
I've felt, since before she left and ever since...the consequences of my actions. I've tried to atone. I've changed.
She needs to feel the consequences of her actions.
Our children are in bad shape. She has used them as weapons. She's impervious to the damage that she's doing to the kids. Selfish...in the truest definition of the word.