But of course I still have walls up. Working on that. Still want to hear "I love you" more than I do. Of course I dont tell him unless he says it first. I cant decide If I need to talk to him about it or not. I may just need to give it a little more time. Our 17th anniversary is coming up next month. May be a good time to say it.
He is wanting to discuss us getting a bigger house and things like that. This is were Im kinda glad we have to pay off some credit cards that were ran up over the last 3 years! It will put off talks of a new house for a few years!! We gotta pay them off first!
Things are good though. I believe we need to spend more time together alone without the kids. Seems we stay soooo busy with them and things to fix up our house that there is NO time for much alone time for now.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Kissak, sounds like things are going well. I had to laugh at the "tired of being stupid" comment - that does about sum it up doesn't it?:) I am hoping my H comes to that realization soon.:)
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Hi all...not much going on lately. Just trying to take each day as it comes. H seems to be having an off day. I really believe he is just tired. He works all the time. Never much time to do anything else.
HOpe everyone is doing well.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
You are an inspiration...I have followed your thread off and on for the past several years and really felt at some point you would finally, finally, finally throw in the towel...I mean I managed for 2 years before H started his come-back but you, my dear, went through it and then some over and over...
I am glad to hear that it appears things are progressing more forward...there will be bad days here and there, just remember to keep GAL and to not hover...let them have their bad days without making issues or feeling that you need to get them to talk...there is a time to talk but not when the mood is not so good...It really sounds to me like you both are on the road back...it will take some time but there will come a day when you realize you didn't think about the past for a day...then it will be longer and longer until it rarely comes to mind.
I do hope your kids are doing okay...I know they went through it too...how is your DD these days? and your DS?...
My daughter is doing pretty good considering she is 13 now and going through those akward teenage things....she has stopped pulling out her hair now enough that she stopped having to wear a hat all the time. She still pulls some days, but its not noticable. My son is doing good, they both are still working on trusting their dad is going to stay around this time, but its been a while since they have brought it up.
They are looking forward to our first vacation together as a family in over 3 years! Im looking forward to it too...just to get away will be nice.
Im doing good too....somedays I have to admit I have my doubts, but it's just me....sometimes I find myself going over in my mind what to say if he leaves again, not that he is making me think that, its just a way to protect myself I guess. I cant NOT think about it on occasion, it just happens, especially if he is having an off day.
Its been a very hard road that I have been on, but I am thankful to my GOD for getting me through it all! and to ALL my friends here and on the outside world!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Beauty from ashes - hopefully the hard road you have been on will reap beautiful things in the future, like a stronger family than you have ever had before.
I imagine that any LBS will have their doubts and always have that niggling wondering in the back of their heads about if their MLCer will walk out again. I wonder if that would ever completely go away? I'm sure that it takes a long time to diminish anyway.
Thank you trustingfaith for pulling for me. Somedays I still have my doubts
I really wish the xOW werent still living in my neighborhood. She has been dating a guy that also lives on the road I do. Well, yesterday on my way home she and her bf were walking down my road holding hands. I hate that I have to run into like that. I mean, I know her bf and he wont even speak to me when he is with her. I can only imagine the stories she has told him. What I hate worse though is the fact my H has to see it. I was praying he wouldnt come home till later so he wouldnt have to see it. Im sure it would have put him in a mood. Thankfully he didnt see them. Ugh...Im really not bitter, I just dont like being reminded everytime I run into her. BUT at least she is blissfully happy with SOMEONE ELSE NOW!!
OK, just had to get that out....lol
H and I are making plans to go on vacation with the kids! Looking forward to it soooo much!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Uh...do you think she has some issues re: parading this about? FIB
Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11) Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10 Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;
