Don't let others talk bad about H, if that's what you want. Just tell them every M has trouble and unfortunely H has a different way of doing thindgs.
As for your confusion, and I'm going to be truthful here, it doesn't get any better in 8 months time either. I am still on the fence. I have good feelings about a wonderful M and then I have bad thoughts about this will never work out. You will cycle throught these emotions weekly or even daily.
If there is an event where H and you will have interaction don't have any expectations about it. That way you won't have any disappointments. I'll look for sandi's list later today. hang in there, the journey of a thousand miles starts with 1 step.
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