W still wants separation, need to DB more

[OfficerInNeed]

Thank you for the post.

Yes, I have gone to therapy. I only had two sessions and the therapist had to cancel the 3rd due to an illness. Financially I cannot afford to schedule another session at this time.

During the first month of our sitch I took an anger management course and received counseling provided through my employer. I have read a few different books on anger management, one I leave out so my W can see my efforts.

I do attend church and talk to the pastor often. He has helped me understand and see what love, marriage and life should be. I am very remorseful for what I have done.

I have read a couple books on co dependency and how to detach, this has helped me break away from my controlling mentality. I don't know how I ever thought I could control my W and make her believe only I existed, what a warped mind I had.

I have a co-worker I am very close to and he is very pro-marriage and has a healthy one at that, we talk all the time.

My W knows I was getting counseling over the phone. My W knows I went to therapy. My W knows I still talk to a counsel via phone. My W knows I go to church and read books on how to improve marriages, combat anger issues and express true love...my W has not asked or showed one bit of interest in anything I have done or continue to do but I still do it because I want to continue to improve myself.