So we reviewed things tonight in preparation for Wednesday's talk...
The irony is that I called the kids at 8:40 to say goodnight and got voicemail. They called back at 9:05...I said goodnight and all that jazz.
Dan texts me right after: "The kids will be in bed by 9:45. I mean good and asleep by then..."
So at 9:45 I get another text..."Sydney still up"...then at 9:55, "Just came back out from her room"...
And he wonders why the kids were up at my house at ten???
So I go over at 10:30 and we reviewed the plan. We are going to tell them that we love them very much, will always be their mommy and daddy, but that we aren't going to be married anymore. And we will tell them that Daddy decided he didn't want to be married to mommy anymore...we are going to tell them as though it is just happening now. It is only a difference of two months and I just cannot tell Nathan we misled him on top of him finding out that his parents are divorcing. ...
I told him that as I did not plan on ever being alone with him again, as there would be no reason, I wanted him to tell me openly that he hated me instead of hiding behind email. I don't really care if it was smart, I wanted to know. He said no, he did not actually hate me he hated the situation. It shouldn't matter to me but it did.
So tomorrow is my day with the kids and we will spend the evening at home. I want them to have one more nice night before we tell them. I hope that Sydney's birthday this weekend is not so close to the event that she associates the two on her birthday as she grows older...but I can't see putting it off any longer. We tell them Wednesday.
Oh I also went and signed up for another session of boot camp tonight. Found out my body fat percentage--yikes! But hey it can only get better, I hope! Way too much emotional eating during the last class, since it came in late winter as I was finalizing the divorce...
Way too much emotional eating during the last class, since it came in late winter as I was finalizing the divorce...
