Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

You started work today after a long stretch of unemployment and you are still ONLY talking about your W?

No more!

What are your goals for your new job? Who did you meet? How can you get involved with the company and your new co-workers? it is crucial you begin to surround yourself with people who lead "normal" and stable lives as that is lacking for you right now.

IMO now that you have the finances established for the short term with your W I would limit the amount of contact you have with her for a while. You need to be 110% focused at your new job, she needs to find work ASAP and you both are a distraction to one another. No need to explain anything to her. Focus on you. And don't commit to a b-day date with her. That is two weeks out and much to soon to even be thinking about it.

I can promise you if you limit contact, keep your boundaries enforced, stop focusing on her and really dive full throttle into work and meeting new friends when you do talk to your W she will seem quite unattractive unless she starts making some changes.

If you only agreed to pay for her meds and bus fare why not get her a gift card to the pharmacy she buys her meds at and buy her a bus pass? Any other money she needs she needs to supply on her own. As long as ANY OM is in the picture she gets no support. It's odd you call her EA an EA but when pressed you say it is a friend from HS. Any man she shares intimate details of her life with takes away from emotional energy and time and further weakens the connection she has with you. IOW, she is keeping her options open. As long as she is talking to other men, no support other than what the law would require you too. Yes, you made a terrible error by indulging her so much but that changes. As you make money prepare yourself for continued request for "help".

LOL work was fun. I'm the only guy in my training class. Alot of beautiful women of all shapes and sizes in there. It was hard to concentrate.

My two trainers are very nice. We took a tour of the facility and for a billion dollar corporation the dress code is very relaxed and you can tell they have alot of fun.

I was pretty goofy today. I had alot of my co-workers laughing. I have to get used to 2 short breaks and a 30 minute lunch. Not enough time to smoke lol.

My mother put the flowers I bought her in a vase in the den. It made me smile.

We talked today and had a little laughter. It feels good to have a good conversation with her.

I'm going to buy her a bus pass at the beginning of the month. She'll have to go with me because she already has a reduced day pass (half of what everyone else pays due to her epilepsy I get to ride free cause of my eyes and she rides free with me lol) and I can get it half off.

She gets her prescriptions filled at the hospital clinic otherwise I would get her a prescription card. I won't put the money on the paypal account until it's time for her to get a refill.

If she needs a few groceries I will buy a limitted amount and she will have to make dude. Same with her hygeine items. Oh how I love "aisle 8a"

I still consider her "FRIEND" an E.A. even though he does not like women. I agree with your E.A. accessment totally. It's apart of the reason we had a problem before she left. She told one of our mutual friends (female) issues she had with me but did not tell me. The mutual friend did not tell me until after WAW was gone because her own R was ending so I rarely talk to her unless I try to find out info.

I really like this job alot. It's very close to home. I could walk there in about 30 to 45 minutes. I might try it on the way home one day to get some exercise.

Im thinking of getting a parttime gig once I find a way to fit my I.C. into this schedule. I miss her. She is a straight shooter and is very no nonsense.

The surgery is delayed at least until after training. One good thing about almost dying at the hospital is that I got almost all of the required presurgery tests except for the neurologist. They were too understaffed and backed up to see me that day.

But I have two different referrals. One from Division of Blind Services doctor. One from the hospital. THey also gave me forms to get some insurance so I can try to get some meds for diabetes too.

Possible anemia. They couldn't really tell. I wouldn't be surprised though. My father has that as well as high blood pressure, sickle, diabetes, and arthritis.

I'm really wanting to just have the surgery for my eye. I'm going to tell my contact through the temp agency and my supervisor tommorrow.

I'm looking at some online schools. Might as well make good use of this blind waiver for college.