Thank you for the advice! I might think about doing that! I'm not exactly sure I'm ready for that but it is something to think about. I've done a lot of crying already, yes Passenger, that baby thing does have me in a tizzy! But, I cried over the weekend, I cried some today & I think I'm feeling better. I'm still very upset about it of course but I'm going to make it!
I talked to a friend of mine today that has known both me & my ex since before we got married. She knew us when we were dating & she made the comment to me that she thinks he is afraid of ow. Well, that got me thinking & I remember, he was afraid of his 1st wife & she doesn't hold a candle to the woman he is with now. So, she could have a point there.
You know one of my thoughts is not ever seeing him again, that bothers me, like I said we were family, he was my best friend & knew everything about me all my secrets, short comings & all. I really can't stand that thought of not ever seeing him again, so I try not to go there unless it's in the middle of the night & it just pops in my head & then I can't get back to sleep, but I thought marriage was forever, guess I'm just a dreamer. Anyway, I'm better tonight, of course I'm still upset about the whole thing but I'm better. I do have a friend that wants to fix me up with this guy, so I told her I would meet him. When that is going to happen I don't know but at least I'm going to try. I'm not really excited about it b/c I just can't see myself with another man, but you know what, I'm going to go (if she ever gets it set up) & enjoy myself.
Thank you both for posting to me! I really appreciate it!!! You know sometimes you just have to vent!
