Reconnecting - Do they know?

[old theotherhalf]

I don't really have a thread of my own so hope I'll get a response here and won't be stepping on anyones toes...

Okay, after the last couple of weeks I of course have been doing alot of thinking, hell that's all I've been doing. On one hand I am madder than heck that XH contacted me. All it did was stir things up for me and get me hurting again. On the other I can't help but wonder if it's the beginning of maybe something good, like maybe he is coming out of this thing.

Now what do I do about it for me?

What I want to do is to write XH a letter. I want to tell him that I had been doing just fine until those two little VM's and one text. Then it all came flooding back. For an instant I felt hope again that we could maybe be together again someday. Then in a moment it all came crashing down once again. I want to tell him that I will always love him very much. That no one will ever take his place in my heart. BUt I have to put a stop to all this termoil in my life. That if ever there comes a day that he can be sincere with himself and I and he finds that he really does miss me and wants to be with me again. And OW is REALLY gone from his life, then he can call me. But until then to please leave me alone.

Something like that anyway.

I don't want to make him mad. I don't want to hurt him. I don't want to totally shut the door on him, but I have to stop him from putting me through this time and time again. We have been apart for 3 years, and D for 1. It's over. Unless he can be real.

What do you think? Or should I just leave it all alone?
Please help? Snodderly?
TOH