I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[timehealsall]

Hey guys. Thanks for the love. It means so much to me.

Well just to update. He continued with the
emails indeed. He was heated. He started sending me emails rehashing all I've done.

Rather than go back and forth with him, I sent him am
email asking that he just stop it. I told him that was I through going back and forth and that i was done. That was the last one I got Friday night.

I did happy hour and then went out and had
alot of fun. Got picked up alot by males and most of which were
in their early 20's. The attention was nice but no thanks. Haha

H sent me an email wishing S5 a great first baseball game and said that he was sorry he couldn't be there. He then sent emails throughout Saturday checking on the kids. I was light and short but to the point. It was like he was looking to have a conversation but I didn't entertain it.

On Sunday, I was at home online and he reaches out to me on skype.

Apologized (gasp) for his behavior. Said that he has been doing alot of
thinking and that he is going to sell everything off in his
office overseas and close it down and come
home. He says that he needs to do this himself and that he needs to get us
out of this mess alone. I couldn't believe it. He has
never owned up to anything in our 11 years together. He said he wants us to work together to get our life back and for our kids. I told him I agree and that we need to move forward. He asked what that meant and I said that it means we need to leave the past in the past, focus on the present, set goals for the future and move forward. (him questioning that was because he thought I meant move on without him)

I told him of course but that I wouldn't be able to afford too big of a place for myself and he asked why I was moving out and if I was divorcing him. I said that he told me he wanted one and he said that he lied and only said that because he was upset and that he doesn't want one.

Needless to say, this was all shocking to read coming from him. I am
still proceeding with caution being that these WS are up and down and for all I know, tomorrow he will hate me again lol

we then chatted for an hour or so by video chat.

He sent me an email this morning wishing me a great day xoxo's and
that he can't wait to get home.

I let him do all the calling today and he did call and email me
several times.

We shall see.