The light at the end of the tunnel

[kjensen]

So..
H is still so reactive. I emailed him and asked when he'd like to get together..he responded that he had a meeting set up next week for the income evaluation and he was very angry about it, but it wouldn't interfere with our talk! I had opened a piece of mail we received in his name for OUR credit card that we were closing..he asked why I would do that(b/c lots of mail/bills that I pay are addressed to him!and they are still coming to this address 5 months after he moved out)....

So I've made no response. I'll wait a day or so til I'm in a good frame of mind and then meet with him. I really dread this, but think its necessary.

I'm just surprised with how negatively he sees me, how he still blames me for the mess he's created. I thought distance would help dispell his reactivity and anger, but it hasn't seemed to!

Just makes me sad that this is where we are. I'm moving on mentally from this relationship as it seems pretty toxic to me at the moment and I know I deserve better. Living in the present.
Grieving the loss. Moving forward.