Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

Went to a wedding with W, and we won a trip to Vegas, but she wants me or her to go alone with the kids. I want to go as a family, but I think her mind is set. I know what to do.

Went to my temporary job today, and it was a lot of fun, but I became very sad on the way home thinking about the trip to Vegas and my M. I do not know why I am sad today when I have not been for a while or angry yesterday. I have all these emotions. I guess something inside of me is telling me that our M is over. She also talked to the OM on the cell phone when she was out with the kids.

I hate these feeling that I am having. I just needed to reveal and talk about them to keep myself grounded and calm about my mess of a life. I have been doing good with my feelings. I don't want to let them take over me.

If is over I can't do nothing more about it. I will keep trying, but I it is taking its toll on me. I have noticed today how much weight I keep losing.

That is all...