I had a great day with the kids yesterday. We went to a play in the "big city" and had a very good dinner afterwards. It was a baseball/softball free day - and it was good! Last one until August...........

I have been able to be dim/dark for awhile, but had to contact H today to let him know D13's track schedule - that she would be missing sb practice tonight. When I realized last night that she had a meet tonight I told her she needed to contact her dad and coach to let them know and she said - no way! I am not missing softball practice - dad will kill me! I told her it was her decision. This morning she decided she was going to the track meet......leaving it to me to let H know. I reluctantly sent a pretty detailed e-mail with what was left and that she would be DONE with track next Monday.

I anticipated a scathing response, and yes, was worried about what it was going to be----which really pisses me off. I wish I could stop caring----even in a situation like this, when I fully believe that his stance about D13 doing track is wrong----I still worried about how upset he would be that she would miss sb practice today and next Monday. I had thought about adding something to the e-mail about how important I thought it was that she went out for track and that even though it has interfered with pitching and sb practice - it was for a very short time.....but I didn't, knowing that how I feel about this doesn't matter to him - so I guess that is progress for me.

His reply: "OK"

So......of course, my twisted, hung up mind is taking this as evidence that he knows that I don't care how he feels about D13 doing track - and how wrong it is in his mind........and this bothers me too.

I really want to fully detach. Why can't I?

Me 45
M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08
D 18, D 14, S 12