Thanks Shiny and Holdingon - your words brought tears to my eyes. I appreciate your thinking about what he might be feeling - I can usually do that myself, but in my current mindframe it has been too hard. You helped sooooo much.

I want to call him to apologize for my mood but will see what the day brings. I have to work on my gigs first so maybe this feeling will pass and I will let things ride. Who knows? I just want to make sure that his image of me is a positive one.

Anyway, thanks again. I'll run my thoughts here first because you folks are always such a great support system!

totite "Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative..."