Eric, I can tell you that giving up has never been something I do or take lightly. I'm an ex army ranger man, it is in my blood to fight until I cannot any more. But I can also see a lost cause. I have no pride in this situation how can I? I have a little anger, but it isn't so much that I am letting it control my decisions. I know that what I have done is all that I can do. Her LL is quality time. How in Gods name do I fullfil that while detaching? How can I ever be happy while all I would be doing is wasting time and money on her? I know that filing will not release me, i have two children with her. I'm stuck with her for life. But I know that I wont be happy with her. I know this. I see it Bro. I know you don't want me to give up and I'm not giving up because if I was I would just effing kill myself. I'm moving on....will it hurt? yeah, but not as much as wasting time on her. I'm moving on, for myself, not to bring her back becaus that I all I wanted before that is all I did. My kids will see me being happy! And goofy like I used to be. I know they are going to wonder especially my son he is going to ask questions and wonder why her and I arent togther and I'll be able to look him in his eyes and tell him the truth with out a faultering voice. I just know that I will not be able to take her back when she isn't willing to change and never will be. I wish it was going down another way but I cannot keep going on like this.
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
