thanks for the words of encouragement.

yeah, i need to pick myself up and move forward. maybe tomorrow cause today i give myself the chance to wallow in my pajamas for the day.

also the piece about life not turning out the way we expect is a life lesson for me. understanding that while i think i have things figured out, God is the only one in control and i have to accept it. in the meanwhile, i can do what i can to be good myself and well, that's about it! life happens.