is my WAH in an MLC (need some experts!)?

[ericmsant2]

Pandora

I am so sorry Pandora. So sorry.

it's so hard

Yes it is but YOU have to KNOW that you can pull through this. You may not feel that right now but remember it is a "feeling" and feelings are temporary. This is hard Pandora but if you allow yourself the opportunity you will learn alot about yourself in this process.

i backslid big time today, talked about relationship, cried so much, and what not.

Don't beat yourself up over this. It's normal. Many of us have done the SAME thing. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back on the horse that is HEALING. Yep...healing. You need some time to heal dear. You need to take some time to regroup. Remember, the MLCer can change there mind. While you wait you need to keep focused on YOU. Keep focused on detaching. Keep focused on your health.

but emotionally, god, it's so hard. i mean for the LBS, it's so much pain, confusion, loss of confidence,

The pain will pass. When - IMO...I think the LBS controls this. How - by feeling the pain, learning from it and then releasing it. In terms of the loss of confidence I think you need to realize that your H fell in love with you for a reason. What are the reasons? I bet those reasons are still in YOU. Take this time to find them again. Take this time to realize that YOU control YOUR destiny.

i guess life never turns out the way we expect, does it?

IMO - life is what we make it. We can really on someone else to write our future or we can take the bulls by the horns and roll with the natural evolution that is life. You life Pandora is in YOUR hands. You can know decided what you want to do with it. Will you need to react to certain things? Yes - BUT YOU CONTROL how you react.

As hard as this is and as much pain as you are in. Please KNOW that you will make it. You will survive. You will. I believe in you and I know a lot folks on this board believe in you.

Rest Pandora...rest for now.

God Bless,
Eric