How do I act?

[steady]

Good for you. Now keep being genuine. The relaxion you feel is probably you letting go of the need to 'control' the situation and letting go of walking on eggshells.

There is one huge thing I've learned through my sitch and it's this- I have to keep my integrity and be genuinely who I am. I have to show the real me, and not some persona or mask of what I think other people may want to see. This is why I suggested you share what you were thinking and feeling with your husband. This is being real and authentic. I spent too much of my life filtering my emotions and thoughts because of my fear of how the other person would take it. You know what that got me? Nothing.

People will like us, but they aren't really liking who we really are - they like the fake persona we are putting forth. The real us is trapped behind this persona. But you know what? I'd rather someone reject me for the authentic me than like me for the mask I'm presenting. It makes life so much more peaceful and easier to live.

The next challenge you face is to not get complacent. If you keep coming here you will be taking steps to insure you don't. This place will act as a constant reminder of where you were not that long ago and will help you keep on track with staying awake.