I understand what you mean, Ferg. Yesterday while I was mowing (that's my thinking time ) I was pondering what I would do if I could have a chance w/my exH again.
And I really don't know. I have worked so hard to reclaim the authentic BBJ who is happy, upbeat, fun, etc that going back to someone who has not grown, still blames the world for his troubles, sees himself as the victim? It just is not appealing...if it weren't for my kids that door would not have even a crack in it...
So I can understand how you could spend time with her, see that she hasn't really used this time for introspection and growth, and not be interested in going back to what didn't work...