what to believe?

[TimeHeals]

I think you need to go with everybody's advice here and give yourself a break from worrying about how everything is going to turn out.

You can't control anybody but yourself, so by all means control yourself. Don't be angry, don't try to figure anybody else out, and above all don't do anything with the intent of manipulating anybody else to get the result you want. Just don't worry about it for a while (give yourself a day off). After that focus your attention elswhere unless he reaches out to you, and if that happens, just try to listen without arguing or reasoning.