Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

[AliSuddenly]

I had MIL to stay all weekend, I enjoyed being more in an cemented role in his life than last June when she stayed with us a month after reconciling (was a nightmare, she barely spoke to me). It went well, although she was rather self involved (poor fiance)..at least I am accepted once again for her precious son!

I felt VERY emotional and very loved up with him all weekend (he was too).. I tried to explain why by starting with..I missed you so much when we were apart.. but he snapped at me "I KNOW".. when I asked why he snapped, he said, it was the guilt, he STILL just feels so guilty, for hurting me. I said my point was about appreciating him and not taking him for granted since, not about the hurt.. which he liked, and apologised for being short with me, but his Mum had been hard work, so he was just transferring. I said he needs to try and stop being so guilt ridden, I was over OM but I'm not guilty anymore (well, only when I really think about it!).. he said, it wasnt revenge - you do know that? I said of course I do.

Its amazing how much you can hurt one another and yet find a way through to being in love again. How much turbulence a relationship can weather. I can honestly say we have a better, more loving equal R now and I love and appreciate him more than I did before and that I am happier than ever. But... yep, still affecting me! Still making me emotional at times, when will it end hey!?