You are going through a rough patch. I know that you feel that everything is falling on you and that life it too hard right now.
Looks like you had your share of hardship and its understandable that you question everything right now.
You have to try and look at the positives...you have beautiful children that love you, need you and depend on you. They are your reward, you were blessed with them and they are your true family. Your H is loosing big by giving that up. He will discover that sooner or later.
Right now he is lost and you need to let him go for now and start concentrating on building your new life as if he is not coming back. Trust me, once you make that mental step and totally detach, it will empower you and release you from the torment.
You are young and even if you don't save this marriage, you need to believe that there is much happiness in store for you in the future. The way you describe your marriage I sense that it had some problems throughout, maybe you don't even want that back, maybe there is a new big love waiting for you in the future, that will make you happy. You just don't know what future brings. I also believe that everything bad is good for something and that when one door closes another door opens.
"Life is a cycle, always in motion, if good times have moved on so will times of trouble!"
Much love & hugs
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
