How do I act?

[Surviving03]

Sorry Steady, I actually got on here originally with the intent of addressing your post and then I got side tracked lol

Well, I completely forgot to mention that I did actually take your advice, when I had said that my husband was sending me really nice emails from work, I had wrote him first saying some of those things that you said I should say to him. I emailed him first to tell him to have a good night at work, and he wrote back something like thanks honey i love you... and I replied with, "Hey, thanks for reminding me tonight that I still have alot of changes to make within myself for this marriage, I really dont want to see us go back into the same old routine" and thats when he replied with "and I have alot of changes to make as well, and it may not happen overnight but it WILL happen and I will not lose you again" or something like that....

I had mentioned to him about things feeling forced, he didnt have much of a response to that... but over the course of the weekend, things started to feel way more natural...so its been really really nice.

Taking it all one day at a time, doing our best to just enjoy eachother and not talk about R. I am really starting to feel like I have my life back, but a better improved version.