Dang, I had a message typed out and accidentally killed the window. $#^&

OK, brief version. Karen, no I'm not taking it as critical. I'm self reporting, and the things you say don't surprise me, you're helping me reconcile the gap between what I know and my behavior. Anyway, things are falling into place I think a little more, our conversation tonight when I picked up the kids was pretty neutral.

I'm pretty happy with myself this weekend, doing a home improvement project, got the grocery shopping and laundry done, cut the grass, did the yoga class, learned a new song. Long way from spending the weekend brooding in a chair, months ago. I did have that moment when I completed what I was doing for the house, that I wanted W to see, as a partner in our home. I guess I'll continue to have those moments.

I'm pondering what to think about triplet mom (TM from here on). Talked to her yesterday briefly (she's back in town) and told her that STBXW is still very angry with her and is basically going to let her have it and - how to put it? Revoke her friendship. Yes my friends, this is the woman I had that brief relationship with last fall (this was after the divorce was in progress, I had confronted W with lying about the OM and told her I was done, press on with the D, I'm good to go). STBXW doesn't know about this... but basically, after a conversation with STBXW, TM declared that it was clear to her we were going to reconcile and bowed out. She saw I guess that same back-and-forth that I've reported on here. Well, that's the simple version anyway.

I guess it was Dec that we had done a couple of things together with the kids (they are all friends), and W told her to cut it out and it wasn't cool. I've talked to her semi-regularly since then, and she's been a good supportive friend, but since I've been back in the house she has dropped in with her kids (yeah, she lives a couple of streets away). And she asked me to look after her older son while she was out of town. So STBXW is upset. And honestly, I can understand why.

Ah, well I might as well spill it all now, yeah we shared a brief moment of affection last time she was here.

I'm not sure what she wants (and not sure she knows), but I know deep down that this has all the makings for bad news. And I recognize from what's happened already that my judgment is NOT GOOD in this case.

My boys ask regularly if the triplets can come over. See? What a nice mess. So, like I said, I'm pondering what to think.

Karen and Bill have commented on this situation before, I'm bracing for the 2x4s. (remember I said that I self-report?)