Hope, going dim is for *you*, not as a tactic to get to him. It's for you to disengage, retreat to your "corner" and gather your strength back.
You are as strong as anyone here! Totally seriously, you are way strong! You've gotten through a year of hell already. And you're still here and kickin', right? Stop underestimating yourself.
Here I see an intelligent, funny, sweet, and very strong woman. Look at how many people you have chiming in on your thread here--here, at a section of the boards that gets very little traffic! Do you think we all are here because we see you as some pathetic blob? Not even close. I know your husband's said some awful things to you, but no has died and appointed him as the one who gets to decide what your faults are and your worth as a human being.
Me38,H:38,S:7 Married:6/99 Bomb:7/04 Sep.:5/05 D Filed:3/08;Final 1/10 Piecing:11/09 H moved back:09/10 Current thread: http://tiny.cc/htcty