Into my arms... #70

[AliSuddenly]

I sent him an email telling him now that you will be less busy lets conectrate on us and have fun with each other. He replied, Of course, I am in 1000%
He is tender and joking and flirting. I am too.

Wow, that bought a lump to my throat. I've said it before, I know, but I'll say it again, I still think its amazing where you are, you two, what you have got back, your H, your love, your marriage, your future, your life (ok, THIS life, you would have been ok either way I know)..AMAZING. I'm so thrilled for you and well done on paying off the debt!! I remember talking to you about that when I was renting that big ole house and we both had all that debt. Now.. money is rollng in in (Jupiter effect) but I keep spending it on treats and fun (also the Jupiter effect!!)

xxx

[awest1217]

Very happy for you. Not that everything is smooth, but it is getting better all the time which is great!

[fb2]

You sound great! Keep attacking!

[flowmom]

Congrats on debt reduction! Not as sexy as your sex life , but it makes a big difference in a M when the money stuff is handled.

[Kalni]

We had a nice weekend, I didnt get to attack fb2 because ...he did!! LOL

Still sex is an issue. He has this idea of me being...reserved because I was but guess what? Not anymore!! Truth is I am seeing him more as an "object", our love making is sex still not making love which is not great but feels great anyway... I am patient. I think when we connect more, we will get down to some serious love making. Sex is fine for now

We went to a christening, one of his friends at work had invited us. I looked great and got a lot of compliments. I felt good. We looked like a nice little family. The scars are not visible to others...

H was in a good mood through out the weekend. And I followed fm's advice today and flirted with him.

My hair still looks like chit but it is growing - sigh!! I am thinking of arranging a night at a spa hotel this week, Friday. My dad has his last chemo though so, we'll see if that will work out.

flo, we never had fights over money. Because I was always paying my expenses and part of the house expenses, I am being more of a wife now and letting him pay more, funny thing is he enjoys it more.
K

[Generosity]

Hi K,

The sex will get there...nice though, that you're enjoying the work in progress right now!


@K>>"Because I was always paying my expenses and part of the house expenses, I am being more of a wife now and letting him pay more, funny thing is he enjoys it more."


I'm just beginning to understand this myself, it seems counter-intuitive, but true.


Happy to hear you had a nice weekend.

Just out of curiosity, did the PM book change your out-look, as far as being reserved?

Sunny

[Kalni]

Yes, PM has affected every aspect of my beliefs about R and myself. In some parts just a little bit, in others more.

I had an issue -I still struggle with- with my body. Very self concious. Even when I was 47 kilos, with tits tlooked at the sky, great a$$, good skin skin, etc etc. I was feeling...not good enough. That I should be perfect. This is my mom. No matter how good I did to school, languages, etc I could have been better.
Therefor Words of confirmation are my LL. That's why after the initial lust period I would get very worried, my lovers didnt like me. And instead of being less reserved with time, I became more...prudent/shy. Now, you can imagine how that worked with H and 5-6 kilos extra, plus a belly that wont go away.

Now, I try to remember that I am...as I am supposed to be. I am almost 40 and of course I could look better but I like myself. The OW got me into a spin to compare myself with her. But, I am what I am. And if he donsnt like me, fine. Others will. (that's what I think when I get nervous)

I see him noticing. I like surprising him. I still am reserved for other reasons. I refuse to do things I read she did to him, because I feel some parts of his body are contaminated. There I said it. Sad but true. Also, I realised, certain "tricks" I am witholding. But at least I am doing it on purpose.LOL
K

[faithisbelieving]

I think most of us...in our positions....would take sex for love right now...LOLOLOLOL. FIB

[john210]

<< I feel some parts of his body are contaminated>>

ROTFLMAO!!! I know this is probably not supposed to be funny but I thought it was! Selective contamination? Kerry you have a video or picture for that?

Nice to see you guys doing it often! That is just great!
The rest will come when you let yourself go totally, grass hopper.

[faithisbelieving]

The rest will come when you let yourself go totally, grass hopper

Uh...john...you may want to rephrase that.

FIB