I'm glad to hear you're confused -- not because I want to confuse you -- but at least it makes me feel more sane that I'm not understanding all the conflicting messages, lol! Hope that makes some sense!
I don't know how much I've grown, but I will say that sometimes it is nice to have quiet time to myself, not to have to answer to anyone, to raise the kids the way I want (and they are thriving so I must be doing something OK at the moment), to eat what I want, sleep when I want, and be friends with my friends and so on. Maybe I'm just meant to be more independant. I sometimes think that if this doesn't work out, I will NEVER get married again, and that will be just fine by me! But then I miss having a guy! I don't know. What do I know?!
