The light at the end of the tunnel

[kjensen]

Update:
H sent me an email yesterday asking how much I'd paid my lawyer so far..ends up H has paid his about $4000 more than me! H wondered what we were fighting over and asked if we could try to work some stuff out by ourselves so we wouldn't have to pay lawyers..and use mediation for the things we can't agree on..
I agreed to this...

H also wanted to have specific times he could see the girls and I agreed to that too. The girls will be able to move in with H after the first week of May(Mother's Day weekend, of course).

H wanted to see D14 in her prom outfit so he met us at the home where pictures were being taken. I even got a few of him with D14. She looked beautiful!

I went out with some people from my class on Friday and to a movie with 3 of them after the dinner. It was fun and different. Made me realize that people aren't going to necessarily avoid me, once I'm divorced, and that I am building a support network with this group.

Was reading some other threads here about reconnecting and I'm wondering if H is really trying to reconnect with the girls, especially D14. Once they live with him half the time it will all feel and be so different.

At this point I am still getting really anxious before I see H, but once I see him in person I'm pretty detached. Not sure if the anxiousness is leftover from all the instances where H would see me and get upset over something I did or said... Hopefully the anxiety will go away. I'm workng on it.

The ex-OW was at the hair salon yesterday when I took D14 to get her hair fixed for prom! I saw her car, so we waited a minute or two and she left with her kids..then we went in. Twice in one month! might need to find a new hair salon!