Hi all, I decided to take your advice and move over to the place where I spend all of my time. I am learning so much from each of you. And while I haven't posted much over the last week, I hope to catch up soon.
Briefly, my H is still not at home and I hadn't planned to move here until he was. For the past month, we have made great progress and since I felt out of place in newcomers, here I am.
At the beginning of October, we had a breakthrough in communication one night. Since then, he has been coming over 2-3 times a week after the kids are in bed. We cuddle and watch TV and more often than not, end up pretty cozy.
We have two parallel relationships going on - one with the kids around which is friendly but without outward affection. We have been doing more activities together as a family. We have also been working together to make sure my D8 gets to her hockey practices even when other family activities are going on. We help each other out when the other has the kids (3 total - D8, S5 and S3).
I am really learning the art of PATIENCE as I am dying to ask him what he is thinking and when can the two relationships converge. Every once in a while, he will ask what I am thinking and I have avoided this as I told him earlier that I wouldn't pressure him. However, when my uncertainty builds, I start to feel like he has exactly what he wants now, - the kids, his own space and me . However, this is what I want too, but with him living here. I like having my own time too when the kids are with him. I hadn't gotten or taken much "me" time lately.
I continue to pray that I will be shown the way this is supposed to work. I have days where my thoughts start to build and my uncertainty returns, but then He brings my H into my day in an unexpected and pleasant way.
God is at the controls of my rollercoaster. And you folks are all of my fellow passengers. You all give me such encouragement and support that I am thrilled to move into the neighborhood.
I promise my posts won't all be this long. You can tell I haven't been here much this week. I have 85 posts to catch up on with Pam's thread alone! And I didn't make the party!
I still have some boxes to move and need to go around and catch up with my new neighbors too!
Have a great day!
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