Jak, Matilda, Doc, and DB Friends, I woke up last night as my dog was barking. My W went out dancing last night. I declined as we were out late the night before, and spent the day out of town at her neice's ice skating show.
My dog was barking because a young man (who we've taken lesson from in the past, and who my W dances with) from the dance community was in our home. My W was showing him video of our dance routine. The dog did not want to sleep, and My W didn't want him in the room with them, so I stayed up with him, to keep him company.
While sitting with my dog, I noticed under the closed door, a candle flickering, and heard what I thought were moans. I went over to investigate, and knocked on the door. I asked what was going on. The lights came on, the door opened, and I noticed my W in a robe and her pants on the floor. She pretended like nothing happened. I thought about it for a minute, and said that I thought her friend should leave. He did as we was told.
I tried to keep my composure and chose my words carefully. I told my W that I enjoy our life together, but I can't live like this. I told her that I want us to have a whole relationship, and that we need to move forward. She asked me what my plans were. I told her that I had none at this time.
I could tell that there wasn't going to be any constructive conversation, as she was intoxicated, so I went to bed. She kicked me out of the bedroom, and told me not to get close to her.
I'm going to try to move things forward, and hold onto the positives we have. There's no easy way out of this, so I might as well try to move things forward in a positive direction, and then if things don't work out, I'll know I've tried to the end. If she wants to end the M, that's fine too.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
