Hello fellow friends. It has been over a week since my last post. I really needed to take a break from everything. I am now back and have been feeling pretty good over these last few days.
As you recall, I was waiting for the LS to drop and it did. I received a call from the H on April 16th indicating that I should it from my L that day. My L received it that day and was suppose to mail it to me. So far, I have not received it or been able to reach my L (sucks!!!). Well I took a break from it all that day and GALed for the weekend.
I actually was able to get away from Virginia and spent a few days shopping, dining, and just taking it easy without thinking about my sitch. It was good for me I think. Since returning, I have not cried and felt like I was in the "dumps" for the last week. While my work situation is a different story, at least I am feeling more confident in my future.
My H reports to duty on April 30th and called me about getting together this Monday at our home to discuss "whatever I wanted to talk about". I told him that if was to discuss the LS, that we should go through our lawyers on that topic. He said he was NOT even planning to bring up the LS and indicated that he has been thinking about us alot and wandering if we could "work". I am not focusing on his statement and will continue to reflect on the good time I had last weekend that helped my confidence and generated feelings of happiness.
I believe he is looking for closure before deploying and I am not responsible for relieving his conscious. I had a visit with my IC yesterday and she indicated that maybe my "pride" is getting in the way of meeting with my H and that I should not think that he has ulterior motives (maybe a hidden agenda) for wanting to meet and that any closure would be for me and not him (that is if that is what I want).
What are your thoughts about me meeting with the H before he deploys? Any advice is appreciated. Hope you are all having a great weekend!
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."