IDK...does he really think I want him to move back? He knows that I don't even want to talk to him right now. He's even started a few texts by saying, "I know you don't want to talk to me, but..."
I guess I need to get back to GAL and leaving when he’s here. The last week or so I’ve been staying home and just reading, but maybe I need to get back to leaving.
I don't get why I'm always feeling confused, but to others (on the outside) it's so obvious as to what he's doing. He follows the typical cheater/walk away script and yet I often don't see/get it.
It really did seem like a turning point (the "good" talks/texts were right before the bomb) - he was actually talking a little bit about the future, things we could do together with DD, coming back home, etc. I felt hopeful bc conversations like that were absolutely a 180 for him. But yes as you've pointed out, PH, it's his ACTIONS that I need to pay attention to, not his words.
Ugh…I’m just tired of it all. I have needs too and I’m really fed up with being lonely and all of the bs. I’m also sick of feeling like a single mom. : ( There are times when I feel like I hate him.
Sounds like I need a girl’s night complete with my faves – margaritas, chips & salsa.
Me: 34 H: 34 DD: 3 M: 8 yrs H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you" PA Bomb: April 5, 2010