BUNS, ABS, AND HEART OF STEEL #3

[cagzmom]

Trusting - such an easy spin we can get into isn't it. I too often get caught there -- but as with you spin out into my reality.

What did we do? when i go there NOW my mind tells the truth. We married and were REAL. Nothing fake. When you are married as long as we all were -- there is real life every day yes BORING stuff. There are bills, and illness, there is joy and laughter, there is hurt - and then there is what they run from THEMSELVES>

I have found that yes I did stuff wrong. BUT even MARRIED I knew that and worked on it. I wish I would have caught some of the pain early... I wish HE WOULD HAVE spoken up and said "hey this part of us isn't working.." but because he didnt.. he held it in.. building resentment and an excuse.

You and me.. and many others here.. WE married for life. ONE TIME.. tell death right??? We knew that there as baggage and stuff.. but if you were like me, I read books, sought wise counsel and did my best... .HE .. and YOUR X?? when they had to FACE THE TRUTH of who THEY were in all of this.. chose to BLAME.

It has been said that it takes 2 to build a marriage and 1 to end it.. I believe this more now then ever.

The middle AGE or the mlc brought to them this TRUTH that they didn't want to face.

HE is a butthead.. Sorry but he is. Anyone who can leave not only the one person who truly loved them... but there KIDS who love so unconditionally. Well.. they are turds.

sincerely love you.. not just words.

your friend - cagzmom