Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

I just want to be treated better. I want to be respected and loved. I want to feel special to her.

I thought if I showed her love she would reciprocate.

Everytime she would say I wasn't doing this or that I'd try to make it happen.

Love is such a beautiful thing. It's so precious. How can people just throw it away like it's trash. Or pick it up and drop it?

I can't believe we overcame so much to have it this way. I just really cant believe it.

Today I just looked at all our pictures. Of all 3 kids. Me and WAW. All the fun we had. So many memories. So much fun. So much laughter. So much joy.

Money and material things have never really mattered to me. My family is what was important. Doing things for my family made me happy.

When I fought I fought for them.

I think i'm just going to sleep the rest of this weekend. No thinking. No typing. No talking. Just sleep. That way I have nothing to think about.

James217,

It is special. however who is to say that you won't have more with someone else who values you, who likes you as you are today? And as a result of that love, your health coditions diminish, and you look at you current situation as craziness that you hung onto for far too long.

It could change your entire outlook on life.

if my M doesn't work out it will change my outlook on life. I will never ever ever trust or love anyone ever again.