H came to see the children on Wed and I went out straight from work with a colleague and when I got home he had gone.
Thurs was my S counselling session which H agreed to come to to support S through our seperation.
When H arrived he was very reserved and protecting himself. He refussed to talk about somethings i.e why he hated the house, how he felt that there was no place in the family for him now. At one point the counsellor ask him if he had trouble talking about his emotions. He referred her back to me to answer that one. He did state that he had always tried to be a good father and if the childrens feelings have changed towards him there was nothing he could do. Some questions he answered.
When asked if our relationship was over he didn't give a straight answer and finally said we would need to talk. When asked if he had laid down roots in his new home he just said it was closer to work. He was asked where he saw our future and he said hopefully at least as good friends.
We discussed my feelings around the bomb and how I didn't blame him as he felt he needed to leave the family and I forgive his affair. I acknowledged my part in the marriage breakup. I did slip and said I missed him and loved him. Throughout H was quiet and pensive. When I was upset he told me he didn't like me crying. I validated where I could. I also complimented him on being a good father, a nice man and a good business man.
As we left he told me how he had got lost coming into the building. He pointed to the reception area nad said 'I told that lady I had come to meet my wife'.
There has been a flurry of texts today. The content has changed. Much lighter with a bit of banter between us. This is very new compared to the factual ones he sent about the children and finances. He also wants to take the family out for a meal at the beginning of May one afternoon before taking S out.
