Thanks folks. I am hanging in there. Just riding the waves, up and down. Working on maintaining a PMA. Doing pretty well, all things considered.
I got no less than 12 emails from STBXW today with things she wanted me to do for her related to the D agreement (and some not). Good God woman. You didn't email me this much during the work day when we were M'd. I got to one or two of them when I could - these were things I agreed to do as part of the D agreement.
I am still mentally and physically wrung out. Didn't get much done at work the last two days. And I'm not surprised. Next week, I will attack my caseload and stay busy.
I know I'll be ok, better actually. But I can't seem to shake this sense of sadness at the loss of it all. Seems so unnecessary and, therefore, wasteful.
God has a plan for me. At the right time, I will see what that is. For right now, I just have to keep making progress for myself.
