Mach, I miss the love and affection I think I deserve. I also know I won't be looking for another GF too soon. I can hang in there and work on me. I have grown a lot in the past few years. I can go out alone and enjoy myself. I'm looking forward to my trip and didn't bother to ask my W to take me to the airport.
I told her things are going to change when I come back. I'm giving her the space she needs. She can come to me if she likes, if not "so be it."
I've also learned something about myself about from my councelor. I have "abandonment issues" which I need to deal with before I can move on. He didn't tell me to deal with them, I just know deep down inside I have to. I also aways know I'm not totally innocent in my problems. I contributed my share and need to deal with this as well before I move on.
