Thank you for the prayers. I will pray for you too. This is so very hard. I am sitting at the airport waiting to fly home and worrying about what I will come home to...
I have been pondering what consequence I want to employ. This situation has cause me to be so unable to focus, sleep, eat. And this has been going on for more than 1 year.
It's the FEAR as puppy says. I have never been this scared in my life. I just cannot disconnect from this situation. Maybe it's being dumped and my age. I honestly don't know.
Wishing that I wasn't scared or fearful isn't going to help me. I got to take some action. I feel like if I do take any action, he will just leave me cause he has the OW. I guess I don't have any faith in our R.
This siutation has sucked the confidence, courage and life out of me.
