Not really Bill...I miss her terribly at times. I question why she won't see how much I love her and miss her. What's so great about this life she's created for all of us? My DD still says things like 'daddy when we go camping next time...' and it hurts because the poor thing doesn't know we won't be going camping - not in the same way we did before. She thinks most things will be the same as before but she doesn't know.
Yes. I can relate to this completely.
But what I mean to say is, you're doing good things - getting out there, having conversations with people. Doesn't mean it's easy. But if you can casually flirt or make jokes with strangers, that's positive. I remember when that was really hard. I remember going to church and feeling like I needed to run screaming because it was too overwhelming sitting in a crowd of people, I was so messed up with what was going on with me.
