The countdown continues

[Awoken]

This is my week with the kids, and S14! had a concert last night. I rescheduled my last lesson just that I could be there, and of course bring him home after wards.

Traffic was bad, and by the time I got there the parking lot was entirely full. There was only one spot left, and it was next to W's minivan! As I got out of the car, our german shepherd, the one pet that she took with her, jumps up to her window and barks hello at me. The windows are up, so I couldn't pet him. As I left for the concert, he kept barking his lonely plea. It surprised me that I felt a rush of grief for him I hadn't quite felt before. So it goes.

W was huddled against the back wall of the auditorium furiously typing at her black berry. I got a front row seat with my new camera. S14 played several improvised solos, and surprised me by playing some stuff I just taught him last week! It was great for me and I was grinning ear from ear.

After the concert, D17 met me in the lobby saying that her mom asked her to come to pick up S14 since she didn't know if I would be there. Of course I would be there! This I don't understand, why couldn't she just send me a text message?

This morning there were a bunch more emails from W complaining about our communication, and other stuff. She did finally reply to the proposed agreement, line by line. Some of what she said doesn't make any sense, and is plainly self-contradictory. This isn't really like her, this confused state. We are both in trauma, and I'm sure I'm confused too. I'm trying to keep the emotions out of the deal, which is hard when I'm worried that she wants to take S14 across the country.

What I really want to do, is work more on myself, and less on the divorce.