I have one really hard question for you that might feel like I just kicked you in the nutz.
And That is REALLY not my intention, just want you to really think about it.
You are worried about your D if you and your wife get a divorce; and what that will do to her.
Are you worried about your D, if you and wife stay in a loveless marriage; and what that will do to her?
Your parents got divorced and you say it scarred/affected you...more than likely because of how THEY handled it and how they handled you...poorly.
Don't you think you would do better? Protect her better simply because of your concerns?
You KNOW I do not advocate divorce...I advocate standing up for yourself and telling your spouse...once the time is right, "With or without me, but you'd better live up to your choice."
You've been here for so long in the current place with your wife, I think you forgot how to rock the boat...or are afraid too.
Fix, the question remains though...
A Loveless marriage...what does that do to your D later in life?
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK