WAH in MLC with PA

[DiamondGirl]

I'm really struggling with emotions today... I feel like crying and can't because I'm working non-stop today (2 jobs)...

I feel like a tiny boat on a big ocean in a hurricane... bopping around without direction or anchoring..

I'm not used to feeling as much as I have been since H left. Before then I was kind of numbed with stress and anxiety (if that makes sense).. These feelings of loss, uncertainty, regrets, anger, love and compassion roiling inside me constantly and now with more stress re: house sitch are really taking its toll on me...

How do people live with feelings everyday? It was like my feelings were there but muted because I wasn't expressing them.. now they are in bright colour and so painfully vivid..

Is there a trick to handling feelings? I can't seem to feel stable at all right now...

I feel like I'm losing what's left of my mind...