Thanks NM, G and P,

I told H i was signing the papers... he said I dont have to I have a choice. He sounded like he was crying? I sobbed all night last night.

I cant begin to tell you how much your support means to me. I said i was staying away and then find myself peaking in just to get some stregnth... and wisdom from you all. Thx.

I am going to work on me, and my patience...