Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

James, all I read are excuses, excuses and more excuses.

Stop making excuses for this woman.

they are not all excuses. she does need to treat me better. she does need to change. she does need to get the freaking help. But how can she treat me better if she's not even doing what the heck she's supposed to do. She was supposed to get the antidepressant and go to I.C. a long time ago. That falls on me. I was supposed to do it and take her. I signed the forms saying I would as her caretaker and medical poa.

When they put her back on her current pill I was supposed to go as well to give them the medical history and what she was supposed to do and what other doctors stated. I did not do it.

I feel really really bad. I talked to our I.C. counselor the other day the one we had when we were going for cps and she also stated she was concerned about worried because her behaviour was extremely erratic during their last few sessions. She could not delve into details but she's extremely worried and said that she also gave her a referral for patient outcare.

She asked me what medicine she was on and about the pill she was taking. I told her. She said the symptoms are very bipolarish. I told her with that pill and the lack of antidepressants she's always that way.

in her mind she's "better"

i've somewhat gotten a handle on my diabetes but im working on that as well.

I'm really in a jam. If I work the job i have 5 weeks of trainnig. I don't know how to fit the surgery in. I still have to see the neurologist get this insurance and try to work.

I really really don't know what to do. I'm very frustrated and there's so many things and goals i'm trying to take care of