Yesterday was nice and all the birthday wishes really perked me up! Thanks guys!
I asked my boss for a dinner recommendation since she is always out and about at different civic events and such. She suggested a place near our office that is a small bistro style restaurant. Excellent food! I had grilled mahi mahi fish tacos with black beans and rice and a BIG glass of Proseco and lobster mango ceviche for an appetizer. FABULOUS! WAY way way outside of my diet but today is another day. Before you ask, Gabe went with me and he paid for dinner. It was nice to just sit and chat. We had dropped Marc off at his CAP meeting and it was just like a natural progression to go to dinner together. I did thank him for coming with me and he said, "Well, would you have come by yourself if I didn't?" I told him that yes, I would have. As a matter of fact I do a lot of things by myself. It's not like I'm going to sit at home when I don't want to just because my friends aren't able to go out right then. He seemed really surprised by this. I wonder if he has noticed the other ways I've changed? It doesn't really matter, but I am curious.
It does seem that the changes I have made are more apparent than I had thought. My friends notice all the time, and I am feeling much more confident and assertive about things. Now, I just have to figure out my pesky feelings about Gabe. I'm really scared that I'm going to take a really hard fall. Gabe has told me he is enjoying being with me. Sure, what's not to enjoy? I'm fun! He is definitely enjoying the fringe benefits and he has no need to express anything toward me. Like I said before, every man's dream. Every woman's nightmare. We are wired to be emotional and my emotions just won't be shut down no matter how hard I try. Oh well, my fault and I'll take the pain when it comes without blaming anyone but myself.
SOOOOOOOOO glad it's Friday! Once this day at work is over I plan on making the most of the stormy next couple of days. Wish it was going to be sunny like last weekend though.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
It was nice to just sit and chat. We had dropped Marc off at his CAP meeting and it was just like a natural progression to go to dinner together. I did thank him for coming with me and he said, "Well, would you have come by yourself if I didn't?" I told him that yes, I would have. As a matter of fact I do a lot of things by myself. It's not like I'm going to sit at home when I don't want to just because my friends aren't able to go out right then. He seemed really surprised by this. I wonder if he has noticed the other ways I've changed? It doesn't really matter, but I am curious.
