have heard nothing from my H all week since monday...i feel very numb about it. it's hard to miss someone who isn't even there anymore. it's almost like i just miss the idea of him now. i think he probably needed the time to cool down after our legal talk on monday, but...part of me fears his silence. since he is unemployed now and i'm probably making more than him at this point, he could certainly come back to me and tell me he wants spousal support from ME. i really don't think he would do that, though...but then again, i don't really know this person he is now.

i have to wonder how it came to this. the silence feels worse than any harsh words ever could.

Me30 H29
M2.5 T5
H moved out 1/23/2010
H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010
...feeling hopeless