Still trying to stay dim. It sucks because H seems he couldn't be happier. I came home from rehearsal and went straight to bed. I kept walking away and saying very little when he spoke to me. No reaction from him. He's happy in his own little world. He has controlled me for so long and now he has me quiet and in my little corner just where he wants me. BUt I'm not pursuing...don't want to be hurt again. REsisted going in the living room to talk, watch shows, etc...resisted asking about S...resisted asking for a hug... I did it anyhow! And, he continues to be nice. It's so weird.trying not to get my hopes up. This sucks~
