It is really really hard not to help. Or want time with her and things like that. I feel so guilty about some of the things that occured between us.

Only you can answer the question why you crave time and attention from a woman that has given you a STD, cheated on you in multiple ways, left you and has treated you poorly? Why do you crave time and attention from a woman who has not done right by her children and does not take care of herself?

The thing I feel most guilty about is sd8. Second not getting her the antidepressants. There are so many little guilty feelings I have. I wasn't an awful H I think for the most part I was pretty good but I could have done alot better.

You and your W both have lots of issues to work out as individuals regarding your children. It is a terribly, terribly sad situation. Why is it your job to get your W AD's? It is not? Just like it was up to me to get mine. Yes, my mom stepped in and took me to the dr but after that it had to be all me.

the drama will increase if I do that? I can't take anymore drama. that's part of the reason I've started just not argueing anymore.

Her drama will increase and it's not your problem. It doesn't matter if the two of you argue or not, the drama still exists. The massive amount of phone calls and texts is honestly ridiculous and very unhealthy. A grown man giving a grown woman a phone battery?

I really do think the meds are affecting her too. She is supposed to be on a freaking antidepressant with it. *sighs*

Again, a grown woman who is aware of her medication regime and chooses NOT to follow it. Her problem and one you cannot change until SHE is ready to take control of her own life. You think things are getting better and they are not. You may not be arguing but all the bad behavior is still very, very present.

I feel really powerless in this situation. But the only thing I can control is me. I just have to keep saying that repeating it and trying to appply it.

You have total power over you, you just choose not to use it in a productive way as it will piss of your W. Have you sourced and read the article topics I suggested?

I think it is very, very important to understand what you are doing is not DB. You are taking what you can get and your W is pulling all the strings.