Although I have filed, accepted that my M is over (for now and maybe forever), decided to stand up and put myself first and let go of wanting to pursue him, move on with my life, and plan for MY future, I still deep inside hope that one day (after I've gotten the real me back, after I've proven to the world that I don't "need" a man, and after H's TRULY fixed himself)that we can be the old married couple rocking on our front porch like I've always imagined. The couple who can look back on their many long years together and say "we mighta had our ups and downs but I'm glad we made it through and I'm glad we became the example for other relationships".
Wonder if that deep down secret desire will ever go away.
Hugs to everyone! May we all find peace, love, patience and the life we deserve!
